Monday, February 21, 2011

Day 8 - it begins again!

Happy Monday!!

Today was tiring, but not nearly as tiring as last Monday!! We did another assessment hike and I found myself in the middle of the pack - couldn't see the 3 people in front of me or the 6 people behind me, and it was just so peaceful and quiet and beautiful. I just LOVE being out in nature that way, it feels very.... fulfilling? Sorry, can't find the right word - my brain's not working too well tonight! We hiked up and down and around about 4 or 5 hills and although hard in parts, it was a nice consistent hike. I'm waaaay more in shape than I was a week ago, and actually ended up with the first 2 hikers and guide because the other 2 guides and the remaining 4 hikers decided to walk down the road instead of going on the trail because there were some sore knees and it was muddy. When I realized it was just me and the fast hikers, I was like *craaaaaaaaaaaaaap!!!!! as they were going at a much faster pace than me, but I had no choice, so I just hoofed it as fast as I could behind them. I told the guide he could pass me, but he's not allowed - has to stay behind the last hiker - so I had no choice but to keep pace. Well, actually I had a choice, but I chose to just try to keep up. And I did it!! I was so proud of myself - definitely out of my comfort zone, but once again, proved that I am stronger than my mind says I am. I asked to be put in the Fast Intermediate group... one step up from last week!

I also pushed my boundaries in circuit today - I promised myself I would run every time I was on the treadmill (2 minute intervals between cardio machines and weight machines), and I did it... I even pushed through the 5mph that I've been afraid to reach.... for some reason that's been a barrier, and I just went for it today and got to 5.4mph. It was definitely all mental - the whole 2 minutes I was arguing with myself saying *I cant do it!* and then *Yes you can!* So silly, because the whole time I'm having this conversation in my head, I WAS doing it. Hard to tell yourself you cant do something WHILE you're doing it!!!

I've added a few pictures of my hike below, but have also included lyrics to a song that I've been listening to for the past 3 or 4 years. I loved this song the first time I heard it - something about it spoke to me and moved me. It's almost like it was describing HOW I was feeling, but I was still unable to live it. I listened to it a couple of times on my hike today and realized that I am now living it, that I am truly making it happen. Kinda corny, I know...but true!

"Unwritten" sung by Natasha Beddingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

(and yes, this was the theme song for The Hills!)



Peace out :)

2 comments:

  1. Well aren't you advancing along quite nicely. Maybe your thing will be running. I have a lot of friends from WW that run now. I have yet to jump on that wagon, it scares me to be honest.

    I can't believe all the things you have accomplished in one week. You will be like Wonderwoman to your kids when you get home! The pics you post are beautiful. Can't ask for a better setting.

    Good luck this week! xo

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  2. Maybe "connectedness" was the word you were looking for - it's one that I particularly like when discussing and reflecting on spirituality in OT. I hope this journey continues to allow you to further explore and "connect" with yourself and everything that is important to you (or that you learn is important to you).
    XO, Lori

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